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03 November 2010 @ 03:16 pm
Just a quick post to keep this account considered "active" so it doesn't get purged for being inactive - until I can archive all these posts or merge my two accounts, that is.
20 February 2009 @ 07:37 pm
Having shadesong recently contact me and realize that she hadn't yet friended my primary LJ account made me realize that I should send out another reminder for folks that might not have realized that I no longer post in this journal.

This journal is mostly still here as a historical archive of my pre-transition history.

I very seldom check it and very seldom do I post to it.

My new primary Livejournal contact is sabrinageek and can be found at http://sabrinageek.livejournal.com

If you have wondered where I am or why I have not posted in forever, that's why. Please feel free to friend sabrinageek and find out what you've been missing!

-Sabrina, formerly TechWolf/Vurtsnake
For the Bordertownies who don't have sabrinageek friended --

So.. By my best estimates, this first picture dates back to 07/30/1998.
This is the Old Wherehouse gang, those on the West Coast, with Emma.

And.. This is one of the few pics of me from TechieCon 0 -- Best estimate by the file date is October 10, 1999.

And now.. 07/24/2008.. 6 days shy of 10 years.. I finally got to meet corva.

Yes, I look mundane 'cos I'm straight outta work, in work clothes. And obviously, not looking very Sabrina-like. But still. :) Amazing what time does, and amazing how some bonds can do nothing but strengthen!

x-posted to sabrinageek
Current Mood: amusedamused
08 February 2008 @ 08:34 pm
Yes, that is me reading the latest episode of Tales From the Verse.

Go listen.


Great story, and an hour of my lovely voice.. how can you go wrong?
Current Mood: amusedamused
05 December 2007 @ 05:28 pm
[cross posted to my new 'main' journal, sabrinageek]


I'm a Big Damn Hero now!!!

If you're into Firefly.. (and who on my FList isn't?) You -HAVE- to listen to the new Signal Holiday Special Episode.




Current Mood: bouncybouncy
26 November 2007 @ 10:15 pm
So.. I haven't posted here in a while. My LJ subscription was about to renew and I decided to let it lapse and let this journal go back to a free journal.

If I hadn't already gotten the other journal and taken the name, I'd just get a name change token for this one and convert it.. but too late for that.

Anyways.. I'm not posting so much here anymore. Maybe now and then, but mostly I'm posting over at sabrinageek. I'll still check in here from time to time, to check on things.. If you're someone who's not on my FList over at sabrinageek and want to be, drop me a note / comment / whatever and let me know so I can get you guys added.

22 October 2007 @ 09:48 pm
I'm alone in the house. It's too quiet and too big and I feel like I'm about to go crazy and lose it and start crying.

I'm not taking this separation well. I want to go run and hide and escape back to people.. I'm scared because I can feel myself wanting to go back to living with my folks again.. just so I won't be alone. I know that can't happen. I can't let it happen. I just don't know what to do to make this alone thing better.

It doesn't help any that I had a hand in bringing this on myself. We both agreed to it. Part of me wants to call her, tell her to come home.. That dealing with any problems we had are better than dealing with this.

Suddenly I feel like a scared little kid again, afraid of the boogeyman and the dark and the unknown.

Gods, Goddesses, Deities.. whatever.. somebody, anybody.. give me strength.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
04 September 2007 @ 09:13 pm

NerdTests.com says I'm a Slightly Dorky Nerd God.  What are you?  Click here!

Wow, I rock the bell curve.
Current Mood: nerdynerdy
28 June 2007 @ 09:36 pm
Okay.. Head Explodey.. And I can't believe I've been out of it that I didn't know this...

Tonight, I -just- found out that Stacy "Fergie" Ferguson of the Black Eyed Peas, "Fergie," etc.. is the same Stacy Ferguson I had a crush on as a kid in KIDS, INC. Oh my god. *FWOOM*


I'm in a funk. I can tell. I'm functioning, at least on a basic level -- the necessary stuff like working, etc.. and I'm not depressed in the sense of being anti-social, because I'm spending lots of time in Second Life.. I'm enjoying the socializing -- I'm a DJ now in SL, getting to do something I've always wanted to do; share music with people who enjoy it.


I feel a malaise. I don't want to do anything at night except come home and either veg out in front of the tv, watching movies, or logging on at the computer. By the time I get home at 6pm, I feel like there's no time to do anything proper at night; If I go out to dinner, by the time we've gone out, eaten, and come home, it's practically time for me to sleep. Same for any sort of night-time shopping or errands. On the weekends, I don't really want to do much of anything either. I look at the Sunday sale papers online for Best Buy, CompUSA and Circuit City, and then, if there's any DVDs on sale that I'm looking for, I might manage to get out of the house to go buy them. My weekends are messed up by working Saturdays, I think, too.
I wonder if this has something to do with the malaise as well; My "Saturday" is Sunday, the day the rest of the world is relaxing, closing early, and preparing to go back to work. I've talked about this before in this journal, I think, and it hasn't changed. My "Sunday" is Monday, and when Rachel was still working, Mondays were pointless for me -- There's no one for me to socialize with, everyone is at work except me. I could tell, before Rachel took off work, that not working Mondays was going to be hell. With the house empty, and everyone gone, I have no desire to do anything, and I get lonely. I can't really do anything on Sundays, because no one else is actually doing anything on Sundays..

I'm beginning to feel detached from the world, somehow. Sort of like being in the world but not of the world; being 1 second removed from this plane of existence. The irony is that other than the scheduling and the commute, I like the job. But I'm thinking that losing 2 hours everyday just to driving, and having a schedule that doesn't seem to allow me any way to stay in touch with my friends is beginning to take it's toll. Granted, it's not like when I was working at Blackhawk, or even at Bacon's.. but I do miss working at Bacon's - at least the parts where it was a 10 minute drive to work. However, I realize that Bacon's was going downhill; and that about 3-4 months into my new job when I called up a friend from Bacon's that it was continuing to get worse, that I miss the circumstances of the job, not the job itself. I'm not sure that the nice schedule and easy commute makes up for crappy job and crappy pay; Isn't there some way to get some sort of compromise?

Today, some job opportunities at work were announced for internal positions; It's an area I wouldn't mind working in, and it'd be a Monday-Friday schedule, but I'd be working 2nd shift. 1:30-10pm. Even though I'm a night person and wouldn't mind it, I don't think it would work for my marriage, having Rachel working a day shift and me working nights. But I thought I'd mention it..

Blah. Something needs to give here. I also have to wonder if there's any hormonal imbalances in play as well.
Current Mood: blahblah
31 May 2007 @ 11:47 pm
I want a laptop that will run Second Life.

When Rachel bought her new laptop (for the same reason, to run SL), I inherited the old one. To be fair, it's a great laptop. 1.8ghz Athlon-M 2500+, 512mb of ram, etc.. Does everything I want or need it to (well, it can't burn DVDs, but then, I don't really -need- it to.) The only thing is that it's got an older Radeon IGP 320m chipset.

Technically, SL is supposed to run on Radeons. Except somehow the older IGP stuff doesn't qualify. Although, what gets me is that SL will open, will let me log in, let me enter the world, and render for about 1-5 minutes. Then it just freezes and locks up. So what I don't understand is that somehow the graphics set is enough to run the client for a little while, but then something kills it. I want to know what's killing it. I want to know why, if I can run it for that 1-5 minutes and have everything work until it freezes, why they can't give us options to scale back texture rendering, etc. I've turned everything as low as I can go. I accessed the debug menus and try turning off the rendering of certain unnecessary items (sky, clouds, etc.).

I'm frustrated that like so many other products, Linden Labs doesn't feel the need to try to work to make their program accessible to the thousands upon thousands of people who didn't get a laptop with a specific Nvidia or ATI card (especially when you have to HUNT those out special, 99% of laptops come with integrated chipsets not designed for 3d) and that the only answer is, "Oh, we don't support that. Get a new laptop."

Umm. no. I don't -want- to get a new laptop. I want it to work with what I have, especially as I've proved I have the capability of doing so. I'm willing to live with the horrible framerate, I'm willing to live with crappy graphics, just make it able to work with lower-end equipment instead of telling us to buy a new laptop!

That being said, I'm looking at used laptops. I've found older Thinkpad t30's and t40's that have Radeon 7500's that I -think- will run SL that I can get for $400 or less. I don't want to have to sell Rach's old laptop to "trade over," But again, it seems that if your graphics are unsupported for 3d, that that's your only option in the laptop world.

I know I've got a lot of techie friends who read this -- if you've got any suggestions or ideas where I can get a cheap laptop that has Nvidia or ATI graphics I'm all ears.. otherwise, I'm gonna keep trolling ebay and see what happens.
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off